Life in General

Well as usual I am onto a new project! I am the dreamer visionary, and am trying to learn to be the "finisher of one thing well (I know that's not exactly grammatically correct-learn more grammar-another project :))."

ANYWAY:
My latest project is becoming a Eugene Oregon Wedding Photographer-www.jkalashnikovphoto.com I am super excited about this and super nervous. Wow to be in charge of one of the most important days to someone, and to portray their perfect picture of what it should look like to them. I am still listening to Eleanor Roosevelt, "Do something everyday that scares you." So I have been researching and finding out about website traffic, and more photography skills, etc, etc, etc... I am loving it!

I am still pursuing the real estate stuff, but that's the less attractive, MORE scary project that I do AFTER I have done the fun stuff. It's so big and different that I am COMPLETELY uncomfortable with it, but I so want to see it work, I am too stubborn to give up on it, plus my sister and I are in this one together, so I CAN'T give it up!

Also in the midst of all this, learning to just be in the moment, not always trying to get done, to get onto the next thing. For example, I am really enjoying doing dishes more, maybe that's a little too enthusiastic...I am learning not to HATE doing the dishes. It is always such a fulfilling feeling to see a clean surface and sparkly kitchen.

Do One Thing Everyday that Scares You...
(Eleanor Roosevelt)

I read this statmeent yesterday on a bumper sticker as my husband and I were being driven in a car on a tour of Eugene Oregon, with a realtor, who was showing us the ropes of real estate investing, while filling us in on the market here in Eugene Or.


I was excited reading that because that's exactly what real estate investing is for me, SCARY! It's so new it makes my stomach turn sometimes as I move forward dealing with real people and real houses, not just Monopoly! The interesting thing is I love the newness of it, yet it scares me at the same time. I keep thinking, "I can't wait until this is so familiar to me, that it will be like driving a stick shift." I remember first learning with my sister Sarah and I couldn't figure out why I kept stalling and stalling and stalling... and yet she would remind me that one one day I wouldn't even have to think twice. Now today I remember that as I put it in 1st, 2nd, 3rd,...

All that to say, I have been recognizing that LIFE takes time. I used to HATE that saying, I used to get mad that "some things just take time." As a matter of fact I used to rebel against that statement thinking, "except for with me." But I FINALLY have recognized that it's not such a bad truth, it actually has relieved the fears of: "What if I miss it? What if there is never a deal this good? What if I run out of time? What if someone does it before me?"

I find relief in knowing, if I continue at this (whatever this may be); IN TIME, I will get better, it will become familiar, I will be one of those knowledgeable people whom I admire today, who knows so much, because they have been doing it for such a long TIME. :)

My Thoughts

For some reason the computer is underlining my words, and I can't stop it, but I am too annoyed to fix it. Sorry.

As I was sitting here, I read The Pioneer Woman and got inspired to blog again, so I am.

I feel frustrated that when I try and stand strong on something that's important to me, I seem to get many others who think I am too extreme. I know I can be extreme. I also know sometimes, I should be extreme in what I believe, but I don't want to disregard people in my extremeness. I am learning to understand my feelings, stand by my convictions, but also hear where other people are coming from, and see if I need to change; either my way of thinking, or the way I am presenting what I am thinking and feeling. I have learned that sometimes I honestly do need to step away from the situation, and get a calmer perspective. I used to think that was backing down, now I see it's wisdom, especially for me. How do you get someone to see something that you see so clearly and they are not seeing at all! I don't want to be the one not seeing at all as well.

I enjoy writing, so I will try and stay consistent, thanks for those of you who are joining me in this journey of life. I highly value support and relationships. Thanks.