OK I did it! I sent my manuscript to Bill Johnson to see if he will have a chance to do a foreword or a blurb for my 40 day fast book????? It felt good to finally have just sent it, and now to decide whether I want to self publish or propose it to some publisher??? Also another sudden turn in our lives....Ruslan and I are going back to school! Me for the first time since graduating from high school, and Ruslan going back after about 4 years. I am super excited though. For those of you who know me well, I never really thought I would want to go to college, so this is very different and interesting. But I really feel excited about it and I plan on just taking all the classes I love! Ruslan is doing all online classes and he will watch the kids the times I have classes on campus. This will be challenging and I am very curious to see the outcome. Plus I am still going to be homeschooling. Wow!! I signed up Daniel to join a charter school which means help financially with curriculum for him, AND yippeee, they pay for him to take PIANO LESSONS!!!! I am soooo thrilled, and he sooooo stoked! Finances are still painfully lacking to say the least. It's like trying to push that tiny last bit of toothpaste out of the tube, hoping you will then have enough to cover all 30 teeth! 
But the good thing is I feel it's like in this photo of Daniel, it's RIGHT THERE within reach but just not quite yet. I have seen God work through so much in us, in our lack. Things I didn't even know were there have been brought to the surface to wade through with Holy Spirit. Character has been being formed, patience has been taught, humility, selflessness, breaking poverty mentality, and the list goes on. I am not saying that God is the one who made us lack but I see wisdom in the process FOR SURE! I know we are to prosper, but I also know He gives us wisdom and practical logical steps as well. I realized that I had a wrong view of FAITH for finances. I kind of thought when we literally had nothing left, that was a good place cuz now it HAD TO be a miracle to bring us through. Where as when we still had something, it still felt like we weren't fully relying on God for provision. I know it's funny to think. But Holy Spirit has been so faithful to begin unraveling the misconceptions, religious thinking, presumptuous ideas, etc...in me and He is so gentle I can't help but turn from those ways and want only more of Him and more truth!I just love chubby b
aby legs!
