(Oh the twisted web we weave, for ourselves)
OK so I really wanted to write this blog but I was also shying away from it a little because it's still a bit raw, therefore I reminded myself of the purpose of this blog. :) Anyway, the reason I didn't exactly want to share was because I assume some of you will read this and say, "Finally she realized!" but hey, I am admitting, "Yes, I have realized in a deeper way, what God has been chiseling away at for the last few years now, and it has FINALLY deeply sunk into my heart of hearts and oh how good it feels....So what am I talking about????
Well I was reading an extremely powerful challenging book from 1993 called Bold Love by Dr. Dan B. Allender & Dr. Tremper Longman III. When I read the following sentence I began to cry, a deep sorrowful but grateful cry. Here is what I read:
"Don't be pressured to Make Change Occur in Another Person's Life. Do Accept the Part You Play in Seeing Change Occur."
It was like reading the "so called calling" on my life since finding Jesus! I never understood that it wasn't our job to find the change that they needed or convince them of the change needed (blush*). It's embarrassing even writing this as I see it from the true perspective of Jesus. Then I read the next paragraph and cried a whole bunch more as God released the burdensome chains of IMPOSSIBILITY I thought were my responsibility. PHEWWW!!!
"The birth of righteousness and love in this stern world is always a virgin birth. It is never men (Jessica) nor the nations of men (Jessica) nor all the power and wisdom of men (Jessica) that bring it forth but always God."
You wouldn't believe the relief I felt. I can't believe how skewed my perspective was. Oh am I praising my Father God for firing me from that job!!!
For those of you whom I have done that too or thought it was my place to do so, please forgive me and THANK YOU for loving me anyway and putting up with my immature arrogant ways, and most of all for believing in me to see the truth for myself. I love you all.
