Oh, how beautiful!
Your eyes behind your veil are doves.
Your hair is like a flock of goats
descending from the hills of Gilead.
you have stolen my heart
with one glance of your eyes,
with one jewel of your necklace.
I had had the name Elizabeth Lynn, since being pregnant with Ian, the Lord gave me some words about a little girl we would have (and He even told it me it wasn't the one I was carrying) and he gave me some words for her when she arrived.
Then Autumn (my sister) calls one day and says, "Is Abigail one of the names you guys were considering?" I told her we hadn't even thought about that name, but I looked up the meaning, "Joy of The Father" and fell in love! She told me that she was waking from a nap in that sleep wake state and she saw a vision of me pregnant and it hit her, "there is going to be a new baby soon, and she heard Abigail, so she called me thinking I had probably mentioned that name and that's why it was so clear. She was surprised to hear I hadn't mentioned that name. I wasn't sure we would name her that, but definitely felt it was significant of her destiny and identity.
Then came the NIGHT, that is after about a MONTH of false labor, or they say preliminary labor, but I agree with FALSE, cuz I got my hopes up so many times, I was pretty sure, I would go into labor eventually and not even know I was in labor. OK I was wrong about that, there was NO QUESTION once it came :( I had an 8 hr labor with 45 minutes of terribly intense pushing. I did lose my bearings, I felt afraid of the pain cuz it wouldn't subside, and I wasn't even sure the pushing was actually doing anything just HURTING and I was pushing with all my might, I didn't even know my body could do that. Autumn (my sister) said she saw veins popping out of my neck she didn't even know I had! Leah (my other sister) even skyped in, not being able to join in person this time, she was with me all the way from Washington DC! She definitely is committed to being a part of her nephew and nieces arrivals! I love it! On her break at work she had me on her iphone, hiding the screen from any passerby's :) The boys woke up an hour before baby arrived and they heard the loud waling as I did the final bone separating push! Ian (7 year old) told me later that he was going into his bedroom when I did that yell and he covered his ears and prayed for me. :) So sweet. Mom was just about to say that she would take the boys to her place, when Ruslan came out announcing the arrival of ABIGAIL ELIZABETH LYNN KALASHNIKOV!!!! It's a girl!!!!!!! Once I saw her I couldn't call her Elizabeth, she was definitely Abigail our little "Abi-girl" ;) We once again carried on the new tradition (Since Ian) of two middle names :)
I will write more on the processing and recovery afterward...