God delights in my mothering …Reminder to me, and I pass it
onto you! God delights in your mothering.
Yesterday I was talking to my Mom about suddenly feeling
like maybe I am too selfish focusing on my immediate family so much and not
having TIME to reach out beyond my family. I was feeling a bit guilty (I should have recognized the
condemnation right there), like I was maybe fooling myself telling myself that
I am in a season of small baby, young kids lots of needs for their “Mama,” and
that maybe I am just being selfish and not “reaching the world, the ‘truly’
needy ones…” Well as I voiced it out loud I began to cry and I wasn’t even sure
why but I felt the guilt lift and be replaced by truth; I wasn’t fooling myself and God really
is pleased with me focusing on my family.
Mom made a good point, that if everyone would actually take the time to
love on their immediate families and give them time, then we wouldn’t have so
many hurting needy people in our world.
So at 3 AM the Lord decided to make clear how much He values
mothering. I smile even as I write
this because it tickled me so! Abi
had awoken and was quietly fussing so I blindly reached over, half asleep on my
bed (her crib next to my bed) feeling for her “soska”(Russian for pacifier). I reached by her head, her little sides,
all over her blankets, I wasn’t feeling it anywhere…out of nowhere almost
audibly so extremely clear, He
said, “It’s under her.” I was
actually startled for a moment, amazed at the clarity of His voice, and yet so
excited to see if it really was there!? I reached under her side and there it
was! Abi’s soska! I smiled out
loud and fell right back into a sweet sleep. J
The next morning I woke up immediately remembering the
incident and again couldn’t hold back my delight. I had ponder it for a while thinking how God totally, once
again, killed my theology, (thinking that He only audibly speaks or shows such
clarity when it is something extremely important like life or death or a
warning or because we aren’t listening...) so as I write this it hits me again,
that is what He was showing me Mothering is EXTREMELY important and He wanted
to remind me in a very relatable way and even showing His sense of humor!
